Sunday, May 3, 2009

Married to the job

Lately, I've felt like my job is my spouse.

Usually, I enjoy my work, but lately, it's become too much. I've dealt with periods of stress like this before, but nothing, nothing like this. I don't know why I feel so overwhelmed, but I do. Well, actually, I DO know, but it's not anything I can blog about. I'm thinking of starting a separate blog and putting it on private in order to deal with these things.

I've had no problem balancing out the work and play. I've been able to squeeze in some fun activities between my job-related tasks. However, keeping my home and my health neat and tidy has been a big problem. There are dishes in the sink that need to be cleaned, and piles of laundry everywhere. I've been living hand to mouth, and have not been eating the most nutritionally balanced meals.

I don't like living this existance...I know it's temporary, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

I really don't know how other women do it--work 8-10 hours a day, leave work, go grocery shopping, and then deal with their husband and 3 kids.

How could I possibly manage a home and family when I can barely manage myself?

12 comments:

NurseExec said...

I totally know how you feel. I have days where I thank GOD that hubby is the cook in the family, because I can't face the kitchen at all. I can barely go in there to get tea, much less think about cooking or cleaning. Depression is a bitch, period. I'm hoping you feel better soon.

Aileigh said...

I felt like you before I had a husband and kids. How could I possibly deal with it after a full 8-9 hour work day. Ya know what? You just do. It is all part of coping. We have a routine and we do it. Kind of like going through the motions. Some days I really feel like it is way too much for me, but when I look into my kids' eyes, it just makes it all worth while. Hang in there. You work to live, you don't live to work. Keep your chin up! The laundry will get done. The dishes will get done. When you are ready. If you feel like slacking right now... slack. No need to make yourself miserable! :)

Alaine - Queen of Happy Endings said...

Just hang in there Kitten. It really is no different when you have a husband and children, and at least then you you have someone to help you when things are tough. The other blog sounds like a great idea. I did that last year when I was going through some stuff I didn't want public. Good luck!

drollgirl said...

oh, you said it. you are so right. i cannot fathom how moms do it. i struggle with the f/t job and life and a relationship and it is all so hard. i feel tired a lot. really tired. sometimes i think life asks too much of us, but what to do? i am taking a week off soon, so maybe that will help.

i hope things get easier soon. and blogging is a great way to cope. :)

Vickie said...

Bookkitten, I am sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed. I hope summer vacation hurrys up for you.

Mimi Lenox said...

I feel your pain. Work is crazy and will not let up until June rolls around. INSANE.

kel said...

I totally missed this...what do you do for a living?

Janna Bee said...

I felt the same way before I had kids. You just adjust, I guess. I would suggest starting a private blog- it doesn't even have to shop up in your profile! I have one- although it's mostly a test one!

Bee and Rose said...

Poor sweetie! Hang in there:)

I find when life gets overwhelming (and mine is ridiculous right now!lol!), I break things down into little bits. I just try to really be in the moment. If I feel like a nap, then by golly, I take one. If I feel like leaving the kitchen a mess, so be it! This too shall pass:)

pam said...

I know the feeling all too well. Somedays you hardly even have time to breath, let alone get everything done.

Serena said...

I feel overwhelmed myself in this down economy with the health insurance costs on the rise here and the layoffs and the blog reviewing and the husband...its been stressful...you just have to remember to breath! Take time for yourself to relax...and when you are not at work...don't think about it...force yourself to detach from that part of your life for a while...find some enjoyment in the cleaning...make it a game with yourself.

Yaya said...

I wonder that too. I'm just managing life now...what's going to happen when there are kids to come home to??