Thursday, February 5, 2009

Writer's Workshop: 10 Things on My Mind This Week

My bloggy pal Jenners introduced me to MamaKat's blog and her neat Writer's Workshop posts. For each Writer's Workshop, we're given a choice of prompts, and here is the prompt that I chose for this week:

Write a list of ten things on your mind this week.

1. I am sick of politics. I never thought I'd say this, but I could just vomit at all the bitter bipartisanship that's going on in Washington. It's become an "everyone's out for himself" show now, and it seems like there are quite a few politicians who don't care about the future of this country right now. That having been said, I can't resist going onto several times a day. It's a hard habit to break.

2. I need to save some money, more than I have been saving. I've made tremendous progress financially over the past year and I'm really proud of myself for that. However, I just learned that my car needs new rear struts, and that's not a cheap bill. It seems like every time I make headway, there's always a setback. I'm trying not to get discouraged.

3. I need a haircut. I haven't had a haircut since Election Day, and it's getting to be time for a trim. I always know when it's time for a trim when I wear a ponytail to work at least twice a week. I haven't been for two reasons: one, laziness, and two, lack of funds.

4. I've got a lot of grading to complete. This is how I'm spending my weekend--grading quizzes and projects.

5. I feel like I have no leadership skills, either in my job or my extracurricular conquests. I want to lead a committee or a project, or even a church service, but don't know where to start. I don't have a personality that's assertive enough to get people to get on a bandwagon.

6. Lately I've been feeling a lot of guilt. I have a job, where millions of others don't. I have good friends and a supportive family. I should be happy. But I still feel a lot of guilt.

7. Lately I've been feeling way too selfish. I should be doing a volunteer project or advising a club or something like that, because everything I've been doing lately has been purely for myself. I've been working out, eating healthy, and reading a lot. But I feel like something's missing.

8. I feel like this blog has lacked a lot of substance. I like posting my book reviews and all, as well as my day to day stuff, but when I compare it to what other bloggers are writing about, I feel like I've got a shriveled-up, wasted corner of the blogosphere sometimes. There are those who blog about causes, and those who blog about serious issues going on in their lives, and I feel like my place is just a little piece of fluff. At least that's how I feel right now. But I keep up with this because it's a huge release for me, creatively and emotionally. (I hope I don't lose a lot of followers because I just wrote that!)

9. I'm really looking forward to vacation the week after next. I'm housesitting for a good friend of mine. I'm looking forward to starting my first chunkster, The Pillars of the Earth.

10. I really need to have a five-year plan. I feel like I've become stagnant and lazy in my career and my life. I need to examine: Where do I want to be in five years? All I know is that I'm not sure I want to stay in Connecticut. I'm ready for a change...but I don't want anything too drastic, too soon.

I guess I've had a lot more on my mind than I thought! This was not an easy post to write, and I was on the verge of tears for a lot of it. I hope the weekend brings some perspective, like last weekend did for me.


Jodi said...

I think your blog has ALOT of substance. The other post that day with your church. You have great posts!!!

I need a haircut too.

drollgirl said...

i like your blog! i think you are doing great! and i think it is super that you are trying so hard to improve yourself and your life. stagnation is bogus. one must keep trying.

Sorcerer said...

Lately I've been feeling a lot of guilt. I have a job, where millions of others don't. I have good friends and a supportive family. I should be happy. But I still feel a lot of guilt.


Anonymous said...

That's heavy, like really heavy. Entirely too much to think about all at once. Go play!

FireLillie said...

Hope you're having a good weekend. :) I wanted to stop by and say thank you so very much for all the comments you've left on my blog. I really do appreciate it. :)

Jenners said...

Oh I am so glad you did this. It is a fun thing to do and I've met so many fun bloggers through it! are some comments.

#2: We have the same thing. We end up getting caught up or even a little ahead and then the car breaks down or something else unexpected. It seems to be one of the laws of the universe.

#3: I need a haircut too. I should probably do something about it. Unlike you, a ponytail is not an option. I just look scraggly and messy.

#5: You might be surprised ... some of the best leaders are quiet leaders who work behind the scenes.

#6: Don't feel guilty for that kind of stuff! It won't do anyone else any good ... but it seems like that is related to #7 -- perhaps it will make you feel better to do something. But it never hurts to do stuff for yourself. Please don't feel that it is.

#8: Your blog should be whatever you want it to be about. If you don't write about what you WANT and ENJOY and NEED to write about, it won't be any fun to read. That being said, I know what you mean. I feel that way myself ... a bit shallow when you read some of the heavy duty stuff going down on other blogs. But you just need to do what makes you happy. I think the bloggers I like the most are the ones who seem to be genuine in whatever they are writing about -- be it funny, sad, or whatever. I love your blog. Don't change. Do what you want.

#9: You'll love "Pillars of the Earth." I resisted it for a long time and then just loved it. I have the sequel waiting for me ... but weighs like 2 pounds.

Great post!

Kitten said...

Thanks for all of your encouragement, guys! I really appreciate it!